12.53am..... Thursday...28 July 2011




It is odd to me when people actually sincerely ask about my wellbeing and etceteras. I can simply shrug off the non-chalant "how are you doing?" but when the said question is uttered with attached sincerity and genuine care, it totally weird me out. It may not make a difference for an average man like you, but its a big HuHa in my little world. It felt odd even when Dad inquired about my studies and stuff or simply asking how am I doing in school or what am I doing now, weird me out.

Maybe I'm just so used to solitude and independence. Its silly but I find it hard to actually literally open my mouth to ask for help, unless it is offered. I generally doesnt like to be dependent of anybody (except financially from my parents for now, even then I have difficulty asking for more money. Unlike some self-rightieous people, sometimes I dont feel like I deserve anything.) even if I have to fail the subject or hurt myself to get things done, I would take the chances. May be it is the lack of trust I have for people in general that causes me to prefer solo work than group work.

Anyhow, why am I so weird that the little things that weird me out is the common shit that people experience daily?
Oh well oh well, different life, different story.


Quote of the day "There she goes a little heartache, There she goes a little pain~"

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