1.28am....Monday....29 August 2011

It is hard to please everyone. No, I stand corrected; it is impossible to please everyone. Sure, you might make certain people happy for a while, but humans are born greedy, they will always want more and thus, sooner or later you will eventually be taken advantage of. All right, so what if you did managed to fight the odds and satisfied everyone around you, but what about yourself? You might think you’ll be happy as long as others are, but honestly, think about it. You’re constantly be thinking and caring about other people’s feeling, but what about your feelings? Is it worth it to frustrate yourself, constantly worrying and cracking your mind to keep the peace with and among your social group? Are you any happier then you think you would feel if you please every of other people’s wants and needs? At one point you’re going to explode. You know exactly what causes it but you don’t how to deal with it because you’re simply too kind and nice of a person. Honestly speaking, you’re a simple case of a ‘push over.’

Well, how did I deal with these kinds of pressure? I thought hard and weighed the pros and cons. Well, obviously the cons trumps the pros so I just let go. I decided to stop caring; I stop trying to please anybody but myself. Why? Because I was so angry and frustrated with those so called ‘support groups’. Hate was a feeling that ease in so very easily and I embraced it with an open heart because I squeezed all my love and care out of my heart. Eventually, I stop listening too. After all the hurt and anger phase passes, emptiness is all I can feel about just about anything. I have mutual or shall I say, neither like nor dislike for anything. It was just hallow and empty inside. It’s vacant. But I am fine and dandy. I may have problem reconnecting with ‘human beings’ but all is good when you’re neutral. I care just enough to keep myself from getting hurt, I listened enough to keep a friendship. I get to choose to be the tool. I am in control and distant.

And thus I strongly advise you to go against what I did. If ever you were caught in situations like this, you just need a few confrontations. First off, confront with your own feelings and self-worth. You should know you’re worth more than you give yourself credit for. Then, confront the person that’s causing all these unnecessary pain. What gives them the right to put you through this waking nightmare anyway? They have no power to do so unless you let them. Stand up for yourself cause nobody else can do so, and the satisfaction would be all yours when the problem is solved. Say, if the confrontation with the other party went down the path that is not to your liking, just remember, we are born with free will, if they choose to leave so they are destined to only cross your path of life and teach you a lesson. Learn the lessons and recognized it so that you wont repeat it in the future. There’s no point crying over spilled milk, so move on with your life and there will be many other people of different walks of life that will enter yours and might stay for good.